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She Is Our Miracle

by Monique on July 27, 2008


In light of the recent google searches that have led all the freaks to my blog lately, I decided to do a happy post! Wait, aren’t my posts usually happy?

Anyway, today I am going to talk about my beautiful puppy Milagro, which is Spanish for miracle. I named her that because well, the vet insisted her mother was only going to have 5, and she was number 6. She was so tiny and cute and I instantly knew I was going to keep her. There was not a doubt in my mind about it.

Even though she was the runt, she turned into this precious ball of smartness and ended up being the first one to walk, eat and brave the outdoors to take a “stink stink”.1

Around 2004, Milagro became very sick after we spent a few days out at an RV park with some friends. It started off with her being lethargic, followed by her losing her appetite and then losing control of pretty much all of her motor functions. It was awful. I did some internet searches to see what could be wrong, and we called countless vets which were closed because it was the weekend. I left frantic calls with our own vet, who finally called back early Sunday morning. He had told us she probably had parvo and that he could provide us with a quick and affordable solution for her. For the “bargain basement price of only $85″2 he would “put her down” for us. I was floored, and hurt that this asshole3 would say such a thing to us. He told us parvo was fatal in puppies and we were better off paying $85 instead of hundred or thousands only to end up with the same result.

Naturally, that was not going to work for us, so we continued calling around to see if we could find a vet who would help us. The town we were living in was small, so the choices were limited but finally we found an amazing animal hospital4 that agreed to help us. They told us her chances were slim, but they would try their best. Our other dogs were also sick, but none quite as bad as Milagro so we were able to treat them from home.

After a week of ups and downs, they finally called to tell us that we could bring Milagro home. She looked awful! She was so skinny and smelled like a manure factory. But she was still alive and back home where she belonged.

Being away from us for the week caused her to develop some awful habits like barking and whining. She had never done either before she got sick… and still does both, excessively, to this very day. Oh, and she also is a stalker. The moment I move, she moves too, even if it’s three steps to grab something. I can not recall the last time I was in the bathroom alone. They tell me this behavior is normal for dogs who have extended stays away from home, and hers was pretty traumatic.

She’s grown up to be such a fun dog. She is playful and very very entertaining. She even sits still so I can torture her with silly flowers… even though she looks like she wants to kick my ass.

She loves to play with squeaky toys. Anything that squeaks will hold her attention for hours. And if she is on the move, she will search one out to take with her where ever she is heading. She’s a spoiled dog, so she has almost as many toys as I have shoes.

She also loves wearing those cute little doggy outfits so many people hate.

She enjoys eating “yum yums” and if you act like you are going to steal it, she will act like she is going to bite your fingers off.

She loves to fetch. If you throw a stick or a ball or her “squeaka”, she will run with all her might to catch it. She will usually bring it back to you, but there are times when she tries to hold it hostage so you have to work to get it from her.

I really hope to have this excited little ball of fur around for many, many, many years to come. I can not imagine life without her or her sister Sandy.5


  1. this is my attempt to avoid those OTHER words that seems to attract the freaks []
  2. his exact words []
  3. David Hudson of All Pets in Clovis, NM []
  4. Caprock Veterinary Clinic []
  5. who i will brag about next []

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Life.

by Monique on January 28, 2008


I honestly try to make an effort everyday to post something on my blog. Sadly, I fail at it miserably. I do think about it several times a day and then by the time I get home from work, I’m just like blah. I usually leave for work around 7:30 in the morning and don’t get home until 6:30 or 7. And that’s only if I head straight home.

My after work time usually consists of me answering emails, drooling over new things I want from Amazon.com, checking on other sites I maintain, updating my Flickr account and getting my daily fix from the other blogs I try and read everyday. After I do all that, I’m usually really tired and convince myself that I can post something in the morning. Clearly that never happens. However, I am committed to doing better. I have an awesome group of readers who keep coming back and me only updating every 2-3 days isn’t fair to them.

In other life news, I have been talking to the ex regularly. Not because I want something to happen - because I don’t! - but because even though he was a big loser back then, he’s not necessarily a loser now. (Haha.) I will admit he is a big jerk now, who is very very aggressive but sadly for him I am not that same girl I was all those years ago. On a positive note he is slowly realizing it.

That leads to another bit of news, The girl he got pregnant, and then married, and then had a son with had a bad asthma attack a few days ago. She is now in a coma after her lung collapsed. It’s all very sad. They say she is now brain dead. She was my age. The ex arrived there this morning and they are now preparing to take her off of life support. It’s so strange how I had not heard of her in all these years, and then the ex pops up out of nowhere, and we are discussing her, and all of these feelings come to surface only for her to pass away a few weeks later. Parts of me feel so guilty.

Shortly after I heard all that, I got word that my cousin was sick and in the hospital with a possible brain tumor. Today I’m going to call around and get some more information. I have to say, this is one thing about being distant from family that gets to me. I’m usually the last to know just about everything. If it weren’t for my mother, I’d be completely in the dark.

Anyway…

Something else that’s kind of newsworthy is that I braved all my insane neurotic body dysmorphic issues and joined 365 Days on Flickr. I absolutely hate having my picture taken, and with this group you have to take a picture of yourself every day for a whole year. You can take a picture of anything, as long as its YOU. So, a finger or toe would work. However, I am so determined to “get over myself” and take these pictures. I spend what feels like hours overanalyzing every single shot, hating every single one, pointing out every imperfection… it’s torture!! I’m on day 10, and I probably have taken over 500 hundred pictures of my goofy face. I’m trying really hard to fight the urge to take a picture of my pinky. Of course, knowing me, I’d find something wrong with that.

Now, do not confuse my utter hatred of pictures of myself as me not having self confidence because I have that coming out of every pore. No one can now or ever tell me that I’m not a badass. However, I don’t like how my badassness looks on camera.

:)

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