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Who Cares That It Cost Me Three Paychecks. OK, It Was Four!

by Monique on August 18, 2008


Back when I lived in Wisconsin, we would often take trips up to Amish country to take a break from city life. It was about a three hour drive away from our house, and we would have to wind through mountains and the see the most breathtaking scenery to get there. I honestly wish I could pack up and move there forever.

Anyway, I had seen the signs advertising Amish furniture. You buy it directly from the Amish… and they are SOOOO nice. And this was the same stuff I had seen in those high end stores where they were charging upwards of $3,000 for a set. I could buy it for $400!! And so I did. I got myself a whole new kitchen set (which I still have to this day) and a bunch of other little items.

But then, I spotted a sign that said “Authentic Amish Quilts”. I have always wanted to be one of those people who has the nice bedding and then the fabulously crafted quilt folded up at the foot of their bed; Something handed down from 100 years before - and will never ever happen in my family. So naturally, having something called authentic + Amish  was the way for me to go.

When we walked in there were quilts everywhere in every color, size, design. It was amazing and I wanted to buy everything! We asked a lot of questions, and were told it takes 4-6 months to complete just ONE. We could custom order one, and they could put a rush on it but that would take 3-5 months. No way in hell was I going to wait MONTHS for the opportunity to turn my bedroom into a picture straight out of Better Homes and Gardens.

I looked around for almost an hour until I saw it. It was beautiful. Light green and ivory… the pattern was perfect for my bedroom… the colors looked like an exact match… I could not have asked for a better one to be made just for me!

I did a little dance of joy and squealed. I pointed like my tongue had been ripped out or something, all while making little insane noises. The DH told the young lady helping us in the search that we had found one (which was quite obvious by how stupid I was looking at the time.)

Now, no where in my enthusiasm had I asked for a price. We asked 101 questions but never what the cost might be.

And then she sprung it on me. My lovely quilt was going to cost me more than all the furniture and other crap I had bought COMBINED.

I looked to my DH for a sign. Of course he had lost all his color (he has so little so it wasn’t much of a change) and was staring at me like I should have all the answers.

So I said I would take it.

It would take me 2 months of working to pay it off, and I did not care. Mind you I was getting paid a lot less back then.

Fast forward about 13 years and the life of the quilt has been a great one. It has traveled with us to each of our new homes still looking brand new. It’s been oooohed and ahhhhhhed at. My mom has been dying to steal it from me for years which will never happen. It’s been fortunate to have only have been touched by two people. All from inside its cozy home inside of sterile clear plastic bag with it’s own little zipper.

It’s been used once.

And why has it been used only once? Because I am so neurotic that after spending all that money, I do not want it destroyed. I have cats, and dogs. I certainly don’t want them on it. I seriously have it in my head that when I finally move into a brand new house, I will put it out. That way I will be secure in knowing it’s safe and I won’t come home to discover it has been made into a new bed by one of my furry babies.

Ultimately, the true reason must be that I am in desperate need of therapy or an intervention. For real. I wouldn’t even take it out to photograph it for this post.

Hurry and send the men in white coats please.

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My Life on the V-List

by Monique on July 24, 2008


There was a time in my life where I was what some would call a vegetarian. I did not eat any red meat or pork. The chicken was a very rare sight on my plate, but I did eat fish. At the time I was living in the midwest and the big thing there was fish. Every Friday there was a fish fry somewhere…

Anyway, my journey to my beef-free life began after watching a documentary about the beef industry. They showed me a little too much, including how the cows died etc, and it was really traumatizing to me. I mean, seriously. I cried like a big idiot.. and then my husband came home and I declared that I was no longer going to eat anything that caused harm to an animal.

Cows Are My Friends

I lived the life fairly well all while still cooking beef and such for my husband. I never tried to force my beliefs down his throat and I am sure he really appreciated that. Every now and then he’d have a burger and I would ask for a bite, and then regret it and vow to never do it again.

I had made a promise to myself that I would not become one of those frantic vegetarians who threw myself on the ground when I discovered that I might have eaten some beans cooked in bacon grease.1 In fact, I took pleasure in laughing at those types of people whenever I saw them on TV having fits over it.

Cows Are Yummy

Fast forward three years. It was late December and my DH’s company was going to have its annual Christmas party at Brett Favre’s Steakhouse. I was very excited about it because well, I thought maybe I could meet Brett Favre.2 They had sent us some forms to fill out in regards to what we wanted to eat. I could pick from chicken, shrimp or steak. They were offering us some top quality prime rib so I said what the hell, I’ll get that.

My DH was quite worried about my choice and up until they brought us the food kept asking me if I was sure about my decision. I kept telling him I was fine… I would be fine. Just fine. Really fine.

The prime rib was delicious. Oh my god. Every bite was like some yummy goodness that words can’t even describe. Everyone made jokes about it3 and checked on me frequently to make sure that I wasn’t going to regret my choice. I really thought everyone had gone insane, because remember, I was never going to be one of those crazy people.

After we all done we exchanged hugs and headed out, chatting and laughing as we got into our cars.

Sane Girl Go Boom

As we were driving down the highway headed towards home, I was still laughing and chatting with my DH… and then it happened. I suddenly, without rhyme or reason, burst into tears. I became some frantic mess of nerves. Naturally my DH was wondering what the hell was my problem and I wasn’t revealing too much about the exact cause of my breakdown.

And then out of no where, I began screaming,  “I murdered
the
cows!!! I
murdered the cows!!!!!
It’s my
fault they are
now dead!!
“I murdered the cows!!! I murdered the cows!!!!! It’s my fault they are now dead!! Holy fuck, I am a MURDERER!!!!!”

Because my DH was a smart man, he figured he should not be driving down an interstate with his wife acting like a deranged lunatic so he pulled over to the shoulder. He calmed me down as best as he could4 and then drive us home.

I got home and threw up over and over and over. I wanted no parts of that poor cow left in me. And then to punish myself, I fasted for three days.

After I fasted, I sat down to eat a nice salad when it dawned on me that I had finally gone over the deep end. I had broken the one promise I had made to myself, and that wasn’t going to work for me.

I’ve been eating meat ever since.


  1. I saw a girl on the Real World cry for days when she ate some green beans with bacon bits in it []
  2. He is a sexy man, imo []
  3. actually the jokes were about me []
  4. although I am sure what he really wanted to do was punch me in the face []

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Is Anybody There?

by Monique on February 18, 2008


Not too long ago, I was pretty sure I heard a voice talking to me deep in the back of my mind. It was a nagging voice, and kind of making me crazy. I soon realized it was my biological clock.

Talk about annoying.

It led to me walk around moping and acting like a damn fool, oohing and ahhing when I saw anything from a cute baby to a poodle running down the street. I cried at silly commercials, and had dreams of how I’d decorate my new nursery. I even found myself smiling and waving at the spoiled children who come into the post office.

What was wrong with me?

Well, I’m happy to say I am cured now. I spent a full day with someone else’s children and yeah… my biological clock must have broke or went on strike. It’s pretty special eye opening having a screaming child that isn’t your own running around pissing you off. And you know what? I’m not very patient with other people’s children. Two minutes of coloring really made me want to run outside and drown myself in a puddle of water. By the end of the day I was so eager to get home to my own family, and that desire to expand it was long gone. I felt so very relieved.

Don’t get my wrong, the girls were adorable. I have pictures to prove it. And they were friendly and sweet. And oh so cuddly. And they spoke in that soft little girl voice. Awwww. But no. Even with all that, the desire is gone. They killed it. Took it down a back alley somewhere and kicked the shit out of it.

So, the moral of the story is never listen to your biological clock. I know I won’t ever again.

Well, I hope I won’t.

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