Complete And Utter Depression
- Filed under: life
- Date: Apr 24,2008
As much as I love spring… and the lovely weather that comes with it - well, the lovely weather outside of Texas - this time of year is unusually hard for me. I think it’s something internal and subconscious that I am not even aware of at times. It was during this seasonal period many many years ago that I had my reality turned upside down and began the itty bitty steps that led me away from the jerk of my life. Of course, I ended up taking him back after a while which then caused me to wake up and realize who I was and what I deserved from life.
I know I am being cryptic… and that’s something I promised myself I would never be on this blog. I’m here to reveal it and let it be told… but that part of me is so hard to deal with. Granted it brought me great triumph and an understanding of myself that I would never give back, but man it sucked.
Over the years, I have been asked to write a book, to document the life that is Monique, and each time I have said “no thanks”. And it’s not because I have anything to hide… but because I feel that opening certain doors would cause me to fall to pieces…. which might not be so bad if I knew how to get back up afterwards.
And that is the fear.
